If others in the program have been able to go through things such as death, bankruptcy, homelessness, etc. and not take a drink, so can I. Today was one of those days where if I stayed in the house one more minute instead of hitting a meeting, I'd have torn this place apart looking for the booze my boyfriend keeps hidden. He's a normie and can go months without a drop. He does not self medicate, he does not need to have a drink when shit hits the fan. I, on the other hand, am having to learn how to deal with life on life's terms. So, instead, I hit a meeting, shared a burning desire, then came home and slept. It's all about actually dealing with things instead of stuffing them down deep in that hole and topping it off with booze to cap it.
Financial reasons set me into a tailspin but no amount of money is worth losing my sobriety over. As an alcoholic, I can stop drinking but that's not enough, I want to be sober. I want to stay sober. One day at a time.
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