Hi, my name's Lin and I'm an alcoholic. 30 years ago I took my first drink. I could tell you exactly what it was, where I was and who I was with but that's not important. What's important is that my love affair with alcohol started at 12 years of age and 3 decades later I decided to end the relationship. It's been 70 days since I've seen my partner in crime and I miss it. Not enough to visit it again but there's an empty space where it occupied my soul and I'm struggling with what to replace all that space with.
So, why am I blogging this? In A.A. they tell you to journal. I've long since given up on writing things down in paper form unless it's class work or notes to remind me of important dates and such. I'd much rather type it out if I can. I also hope that by putting it out there on the internet, perhaps someone struggling with their own addictions may stumble across this and be helped by what I share.
As the days pass, one day at a time, I will put to pixels my story of sobriety. I will tell my tale, my moment of clarity, when I realized it was time for me to say goodbye to Bud (light), Martin(i) and all the others I've loved over the years. I will share my A-HA moments, my Oh Shit moments and all the other moments in between. I leave you, dear readers, with this quote from the Big Book.
Remember that we deal with alcohol - cunning, baffling, powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power - that One is God. May you find him now.
Alcoholics Anonymous - Page 58
CHAPTER 5 HOW IT WORKS
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