That's how I feel right now, like all the walls of my life are tumbling down around me and there's not shit one I can do about it short of not taking that first mother fucking drink. Normally you won't read cursing on this blog but GDI I'm at my fucking wits end and feel like I'm spiraling out of control.
"Step 3 Made a decision to turn our will and our lives our to the care of God as we understood Him."
I've done so for most of my life and I continue to do so. Doesn't seem to matter whether I'm drunk or sober because I'm drowning here and I don't see a rope. *glubglubglub*
Hang in there, Lin. I know each day is a struggle, but you are getting through it. I like reading that you are learning new tools for your toolbox. That is the most important thing of all. I love you!
ReplyDeleteI love you and I miss you! It's almost the end of October, when are you coming to visit? (hug)
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