...they forgot to mention patient. As much time as you think you have, it has more. It waits for you to lower your guard and then it comes knocking at your brain.
I've been under a bit of stress lately what with full-time work, school and several close friends getting sick. I'm not talking, cold or flu sick, I'm talking fighting for life sick. It's got me feeling helpless, as there's nothing I can tangibly do for them. I cannot fly to them and hug them. I cannot make them well. All I can do is support them and give encouraging words and support. I know that means a lot but it still leaves me feeling helpless. And when I feel helpless, out of control, I start thinking about taking a drink to shut those feelings down. And all the while, the alcohol waits patiently.
I pray for the strength to make it through another day without reaching for a bottle. I pray for Him to fill my heart with love and my mouth with His words. I will not pray for patience, I know what happens when that prayer is answered, more is heaped on my shoulders.
Today, I will not drink. Alcohol can wait yet another day.
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