Holidays are a time for many to celebrate with toasts of champagne, eggnog and other alcoholic beverages. A hot coffee with choice of flavored liqueurs. Mimosas in the morning. Mulled wines, hot ciders and toddies. I could go on and on with the different holiday beverages but that's not really the point I'm trying to get to.
My point is, this year is the first holiday season where I've been sober. It's left me feeling very uncomfortable in my own skin. I go to meetings but it doesn't seem to be having any kind of calming effect on me. I feel like I'm floundering, I don't seem to have a very good anchor point right now. I don't feel settled in my home environment. I don't feel settled in my new job, for obvious reasons. Come on, it's new. Duh. I just don't feel settled, period.
Don't misunderstand, I'm not unhappy, perse, I'm just feeling adrift. I hope it ebbs after the holidays.
*hugs* Hnag in there, you can do it.
ReplyDeleteLove ya lots chica.