Already?

In 6 days I'll take my 9 month token. I can't believe it. Sometimes I think I've changed a lot, sometimes I don't think I've changed much at all. I still feel like a 13 year old but more and more, I'm starting to feel more my age which is a good thing and a bad one too. The aches and pains of my age suck.

Dear God...

thank you for another day without the desire for a drink and without breaking down and smoking a cigarette.

Non-smoker for 2 weeks

Sorry I've been remiss in following up with this blog. I've been holding onto my ass trying to quit smoking. It has not been easy nor has the weight fairy been kind in flying past me. Bitch hit me hard with her Wand of Weight and it sucks. 10 pounds in two weeks is neither aesthetically pleasing nor is it the least bit comfortable. And before you go into the whole, "It's temporary" or "It's worth it" shpeal save it. 14 days is not enough to get me out of the cranky stage. My throat is constantly dry, my pants are too tight, I'm always peckish and I'm not sleeping all that great.

I know this blog is primarily about my alcohol addiction but it works about the same for my nicotene addiction as well. So, if you'll all excuse me, I'll be over here beating, biting or eating myself through another day without a smoke.

I'm A Glutton for Punishment

I quit smoking yesterday. I had my last cigarette around midnight on 4/2. I was going to wait till I hit my 1 year sobriety date but I'm just so fed up with smoking I didn't want to wait any longer. For F and I, we spend between $250 and $300 a month. That's outrageous! So, it's time to let go of my last addiction.

I'm glad I have the tools from AA to use during this time. If I just ride the waves, they'll pass. Deep breathing helps too. Tootsie pops are helpful. I gave myself the weekend to eat what I want as much as I want but that's over tonight. I did pack a bag of carrots and I'll probably journal instead of idle time to be thinking of cigarettes. I'll keep ya'll informed.

On another note, tomorrow is my 8th month of sobriety. :)